It's december.
Time has passed so fast and the O levels seems so far behind.
But was it really?
It's like each of us are on our individual trains and we try and try to shift our tracks to the right where things are better.
But the thing is that in school we keep practicing and practicing.
But when it comes to the switch you have to do it right or all that you have worked hard for is for naught.
Now there is no immediate challenge in front of us and we are waiting to see if our single and only attempt was successful.
It seems to be such a care-free time but when the tracks diverge, you can't do anything anymore for the switches are 3 miles back.
The harder you pull the switch the more the cart goes to the right.
Why is there only one switch?
All the false and practices switches count for NOTHING.
NOTHING at all.
All that counts is that one and only switch that alters your life forever.
But as everyone says life goes on.
Just that the it would never be as you would have imagined it.
And you look back and see...
OMG I completely forgot the su yus...
*sigh*
Life just keeps getting better right?
Now you leave with a sense of sick helplessness.
And people always say as long as you tried your best.
But I know I never try my best.
And I feel so saddened that this would result in something unfavourable in the future.
All the time I wasted.
Sleeping too long.
Eating too long.
Showering too long.
Not doing anything productive while I was travelling.
Playing too much.
Wasting my time.
Not doing anything productive during recess.
Wasting the holidays.
Wasting the weekends.
And Mondays.
And Tuesdays.
And Wednesdays,
And Thursdays.
And Fridays.
And Public Holidays.
And the many days that I fell sick.
Not concentrating 200%.
*sigh*
It will never be enough.
Never.
Never...
Ever...
That's Life.
Or maybe my life just sucks?
*sigh*
And I know it was me who made it suck...
T_T
