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~Melancholy Melody Fantasy~

~Dreams~
I have decided... Since no one understands me... I'll try to understand everyone else... You can express your feelings to me... If it'll make you feel better... Or you just had to tell someone what happened to you today... But if you are ashamed to tall anyone what you did... You can tell me... I'll understand... I'll never criticise... unless your morals are out of line and you still don't know that you are in the wrong... I'll never judge you... Do not care what I would think of you... I'll always be your friend... Or maybe just a living diary... That helps you express you're feelings... I'll always listen... Unless you're homicidal...
30 November 2009

~ Contradiction ~

So slow so fast.
I went for edward's bbq...
I hate to say it but it was quite boring.
Except for playing things in his room, watching crazy throw a coconut around the pool, trying and failing to cook something and poking the black cat.
I still think Blancat is cuter.
We gave it chicken wings and a cuttlefish ball but it didnt eat the cuttlefish ball.
Stroked it and placed a box over it but it scrambled out and chased it.
Burnt stuff.
For some reason I have more dreams in the past months than before.
The last one was about the class.
It had something to do with our form teacher resembled something between FH and AL.
And we still gave our PCT a better gift.
Russian is difficult.
French has similar root words and it uses the latin alphabet and you see it in a lot of places.
Russian is way out.
I need to add some russian people on facebook...


And I'm still Addicted to Blue~




24 November 2009

~ Bleeding ~

Okay so I went to Edward's house.
It was really really boring but I went to West Mall and it's library before that so it was okay.
For some reason at night we walked to Macdonalds but for some reason after that they started turning off the lights for the second level and telling people to go to the first level.
Then Johnson greeded the strange seaweed shaker thing.
Slept.
Kirby says he watches something with 3 1/2 vowels once a week.
Freaky.
Edward says he finds the opposite of kirby's interesting.
Freaky again.
Johnson watches both.
Same old, same old.
Then on the next day we had lunch and Edward left us so we had to talk to his mother for a very long time and we were forced to eat the rest of the food.
Then we went East Coast Park.
Me and edward roller bladed while Johnson and David rented a bike.
We went to the mini bridge over drain thing and back.
Johnson and david were going to be late in returning their bikes.
Edward being Edward could roller blade as fast as a bike.
So I clung on to David while he biked.
It was okay at first until there was this slope and a car and we fell down.
Then there was this part of the road where there was this truck that was spraying water to wash the road.
We didn't know that and we fell down again.
Omg so he went ahead first while I went home.
Omg so pain but I was more tired.
I was bleeding but then as I was blading and walking home I finally realised why in those games like L4D why the characters can keep moving on when they are bleeding to death and obviously moved around the place for a super long distance.
It's because you just want to get to a place where you can rest and drink and then after that do you actually look at your injuries.
But at least we didn't die.
I went home, bathed and washed the wounds.
I went out and looked around.
There was no anti-septic.
OMG.
Now I have to tell my parents about it because maybe, just maybe they know where it is.
They took it lightly but still there was no anti-septic in the house.
So I had to use this translucent antibiotics cream thing.
It is called Bacteroban but I know it's an antibiotic because it is 75% Mupirocin in water soluble solvent.


And I'm still Addicted to Blue~




19 November 2009

~ 曜 (コウ) ~

Went cathay and played L4D and TF2.
Ate dinner at Chicago's Steak House.
It was really expensive and they a lot of food but I just couldn't finish.
They were seriously understaffed so I just went in and sat my butt down.
Watched the Informant.
Worst movie I have EVER seen.
Waste of time.
The guy is a uuuuuuu lunatic.
I want to shoot him in the head.
And they made Matt Damon look from bad to worse.
Went home.
On the bus I saw this interesting-looking man.
I think he was a bartender as he was wearing those things I see bartenders on the internet wear.
Those black apron thing that have wide straps instead of laces.
I think it is called a waistcoat.
Yes, he was wearing a leather or maybe those shiny nylon kind of thing waistcoat.
He was an ang moh.
I think for "Westerners", "Europeans" are not accurate as they could be from USA or Australia or NZ, "Westerners" are not accurate too because Australia and NZ are east, and "whites" seem derogatory like "blacks", so "Ang Moh" has a local flair but it may be a bit informal.
We truly need a new word to label them that is both accurate, formal and not derogatory.
He was obviously around 30s or 40s because he had grey hair.
But the interesting thing was that it wasn't white until you think that he is an old man.
It is like when you look at him you think he is normal age.
(PS I think normal age is 20s to 30s. And adults are kinda over the hill)
But if you think about it he is a lot older.
His hairstylist should be given an award.
Because he had such short hair that at first you wouldn't notice that he had bald patches and his hair was scarcer than normal people.
He also had widows peaks but because of the very short hair it was toned down.
He also had this fold line on his forehead when he looked up, high-cheek bones and concave lower cheeks.
And this small mustache that had the tips cut off so it had flat ends.
So anyway I thought why don't people ever talk to other people on the street?
Like why don't people go door to door in their neighbourhood or block and get to know the people there.
Just knock the door and say "Hello, may I ask what is your name? I live ..."
Also now I seem to crave learning other people's modern way of life in other countries.
I still love scenery and to a lesser extent history.
But wouldn't it be nice to know the education system, eating habits, transport system and other aspects of life.
Like I bet you didn't know only Asians, especially SEAs, use bolsters for hugging.
And lets say you can't turn to your family any more and your relatives go iiiii on you...
I don't think I will turn to my friends.
I would just go to a random person's house, be it met on the internet or knocking randomly on people's doors, and say "I have no where else to go. Can I stay here for the mean time? I am studying at a university and will pay everything back to you later. OR I have a job and will pay for my expenses until I can get my own house"
This is especially so if you pack up and go overseas.
So anyway I knew I kept wanting to talk to random people but am too chicken to do so.
So I promised myself that if he stopped at my bus stop I will talk to him.
But sadly he stopped 2 stops earlier and I alighted the bus with two local Indian men.
For some reason foreign people seem more friendly than locals.
Okay not friendly.
Everyone is friendly.
But locals will think who is this person?
And will send me to the nearest police station.
Or they will have a kia si kia su thing where they are extremely suspicious of strangers.
I guess I too have that when I answer phone calls from people taking surveys and ask for your name.
I would never give them my name.
But I might give people I meet on the street my name...
And foreigners are more of "wow that's interesting"
They do not immediately say I am crazy because they have this "outside" feeling where you feel you really don't know a place.
So even if you lived in a new place for a year you would still accept a random person talking to you as "wow I didn't know the locals here approach people and talk to them for fun"
And on a separate note I feel that old people above 50 and maybe above 40 too are too experienced.
They know the "correct" thing to do.
They will always seem to think you are strange and maybe would call the police to stop harassing them or tell them that they found a lost crazy person.
Also, they say females are more friendly.
But I am not so sure about that.
Sure, they are less dangerous people.
They are rarely, murderers, rapists, pedophiles, child labour boss, mafia boss, gang leader, etc...
But they tend to the old people.
They are more organised.
"A random person talks to me, I would be friendly but I would remain cold and try to get away or strike a conversation but remain detached in an attitude of I met this person today, it was fun talking to him but I don't remember him now"
Men are more amiable.
I think there is a greater chance that one would let me live in.
Like PW said, guys need someone to boss around.
Women are like cylinders on a flat base while men are like balls, npi.
It's easier to push them around or convince them to do something.
Maybe because they are "Haverfords" "a name synonymous with jackass"
I need to stop quoting TKM.
Men are like let's go there, okay.
Women are like let's go there, I don't know I really wanted to go somewhere else, vote, think of alternatives, pros and cons...
But either way women still have better and less awkward friendships.
I think this is more of a disability for men.
But whatever, it makes them more amiable so something you say.
Although half of them are rapists, pedophiles, child labour masters, mafia boss, gang leader, parang wielder, etc...
So you need to be able to judge people better...
There are 4 types of random strangers that you meet: females, men who are friendly, men who are criminals or people with criminal intentions, people who are overly suspicious and men who are not interesting company.
So you need to get the friendly ones.
People who are overly and rightly suspicious are thinking "wtf? who is this person talking to me and wants to get away from you" or thinking what a strange person.
The former tends to be younger while the latter tends to be for older people.
People who are not interesting company are not interesting company..
What more is there to say?
Okay fine, they are those boring people who like talking about nonsense that you are not really interested in and they talk with this aura thing.
It is like how is the weather?
And once you know each others views on the weather, there is nothing more to say.
There is no connection and you just move on not seeing or recognising that person again.


And I'm still Addicted to Blue~




18 November 2009

~ Freak ~

Okay I am totally freaked out by someone on facebook.
And I realised that there are a lot of paper gangsters there.
But whatever join Twitter please.
Or else it will be just be and johnson.
And johnson doesn't tweet anything.
I realised that there are 2000 standard kanji.
Okay have to learn more now.


And I'm still Addicted to Blue~




16 November 2009

~ Holidays: The 3rd Day ~

Feel so angry, sad, happy.
People invented the word uuuuuuus because we need to use it on other people because people are uuuuuuus.
Looked at APEC news.
Quite interesting.
I realised that there are just some people who are really famous while there are others who are new but I did not know.
Feeling bored.
It's very strange to maple every hour.
Okay here's my language goals for the holiday:
Okay first comes Japanese, Russian and French.
I must learn the basic kanji and try to read the kana forms.
Learn 3000 Russian and French words.
But it would most likely become 2500
Because of mutual intelligibility, I would learn Dutch and German together and Spanish and Portuguese together.
I must learn 2000 of each but it would most likely be 1500.
It seems quite crazy but I guess I have to try.
Japanese sentence structure is really simple.
So is french.
German and dutch mainly involves independent and dependent clause switching.
Romance languages are like English.
Russian is still a mystery to me.
The only problem is inflection.
So I must find a way to learn the inflected forms of words.


And I'm still Addicted to Blue~




15 November 2009

~ Holidays: The 2nd Day ~

Okay so I played maple and it is quite fun I guess but must spam pots...
Must start the learning and the activities required...
Okay I totally forgot most of the codes but I think I can piece something up for a new blog...
My foot is swollen.
My hand is cut from those white plastic things that are supposed to bind stuff together and you can tighten it but cant loosen it...
French politics.
Mao dun russia.
Sad travel.
Paper gangsters on facebook.
I wish I learnt an inflecting language as my first language...
Because learning an inflecting language with a mostly isolating language is 10X harder than learning a mostly isolating language with an inflecting language...
Lalalala...
I want to go to the library but currently I have no time...
It would also be fun to stay over at someone's house to play scary games...
Russian is definitely hard to learn because it's is split between transliteration and translation...
I also had a strange dream.
People set up tents at the beach...
I dreamt that I was setting up a temporary hut thing with lego blocks...
Then it became a dream about stealing my English exam papers and re-writing it...
But then I was really stressed and couldn't think straight and it seemed that people around me in this white building where the papers are kept are suspicious of me.
And since they did not know me I had to pretend that I was just a worker there.
Then I got some person to help me kind of write a good grade on the paper, it appears that when a grade is written on the paper they would think it would be marked and just take that grade...
But they could always ignore it and look through...
So I went to the adjacent building to alter the computer's grade to match the grade on the paper.
And it seemed that I could float and pass through walls...
It's like when you die in CS and you choose the free roam mode and the camera just floats around and passes through walls...
I man saw me floating out the door to the adjacent building but I did not car because he would think he was seeing things.
So when I changed it I suddenly realised that that man had walked into the once-empty room and walked towards me.
I quickly closed all the windows.
And when I looked up I saw a woman walk in and I quickly forced shut down the computer.
The woman represented like FT or someone of a high position who was checking on the computer if anyone was messing with it...
Because the computer was a laptop a few tables away from the door and facing away from the door.
And it was like you knew she would could not do anything if she does not catch you doing anything...
She must see what you are doing.
So I was really really grateful for the man and hugged him and thinking "Ha! you iiiii, you didn't catch me"
It was like the man came in to warn me and I think he was not an admin but some important person.
So he could walk around as he pleased but he was not working there so he did not seem to care that I was changing my grade.
Moreover he was warning me of that woman.
Because if he did not walk up to me, I would not look up and see the woman walking through the door.
It was really strange but whatever.


And I'm still Addicted to Blue~




13 November 2009

~ End Of O Levels ~

So I am really quite sad about all the papers but I think that they will pull through...
But I think I really messed up English...
Which is so screwed up
And then I am so happy and pissed...
And I am so bored because there is nothing to do...
All this while I have been waiting for the exams to end and when it does I realised that my whole life centered around exams...
So my life officially ended...
So bored...
Lalalalala...
Ok I need to make a new blog.
Maybe I will join MS too...
And today we played tf2 for a long time until I was SO tired...
And then we watched 2012...
Which was quite unrealistic and it was another crappy movie like the Day after tomorrow and that War against the worlds movie...
It was centered around a family...
So you watch the family survive while everyone else dies.
Oh I am so happy but where is the justice.
Then the other husband HAD to die so that they can be a happy cohesive family again...
It was all a really really stupid deus ex machina...
Then you see that in the end it was the family that made the boat kanna hit and fill with water and not the passengers of the other ship who failed to get on the other ship.
So stupid.
I think quite a lot of people died from the boat swaying and filling with water because of the family...
So when they are happy the family survive, whew weee I am SO happy... Whatever.
And again it is centered around USA like it is the most important country in the world and showed snip-shots of mass destruction of other countries.
And why did that russian pilot die?
*sob*
Okay so now I have nothing more to say but can everyone join twitter?
It is so easy to make an account...
I made it in seconds.
https://twitter.com/g_gerald
But I have no followers and no one to follow so please join.


And I'm still Addicted to Blue~




10 November 2009

~ MCQs ~


Physics paper 1 was so easy.
Okay so now I'm so bored.
Got nothing to do.
Exams are almost over but it is not over yet.
There is also this cartoon that is quite interesting.
So I'm so bored and quite sad about the exams...
T_T



And I'm still Addicted to Blue~




09 November 2009

~ Mostly Over ~

So O levels is just about over except all the MCQs...
The English was so horrible I think I am going to die.
Why does the sun keep on shining?
Why does the sea rush to the shore?
Don't they know it's the end of the world....
ahhhhhh!
The rest of the examples were also bad but not as horrible but I guess it would still be alright...
I am so sad about English T_T
Throughout the whole exam is lugubrious X6.
Oh and before I was talking about some iiiii who stole my pads, I mean papers.
Well this is why I keep talking about pads:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mXb8kZEA81Q
And there is also this interesting video which is quite funny and enlightening:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sbBmlHGgsgc
*Sigh* I am so sad.


And I'm still Addicted to Blue~










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~Current Melody~

Please don't judge me saying I love a particular music artist... I just get easily obsessed and usually this video would change after a few weeks...










~Glances~