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~Melancholy Melody Fantasy~

~Dreams~
I have decided... Since no one understands me... I'll try to understand everyone else... You can express your feelings to me... If it'll make you feel better... Or you just had to tell someone what happened to you today... But if you are ashamed to tall anyone what you did... You can tell me... I'll understand... I'll never criticise... unless your morals are out of line and you still don't know that you are in the wrong... I'll never judge you... Do not care what I would think of you... I'll always be your friend... Or maybe just a living diary... That helps you express you're feelings... I'll always listen... Unless you're homicidal...
30 August 2009

~ Sunday before the start of Prelims ~

So I am rushing to finish up my SS...
Nooo...
I watched Where Got Ghost? yesterday...
It was quite fun..
I obtenu what I wanted on the real one...
And since I watched movie during the day, I didn't have much time to study...
So I stayed awake until 2am to study...
Studying in the night is very very conducive...
Soooo fun...
Prelims coming nooooo....


And I'm still Addicted to Blue~




28 August 2009

~ Honours's Day ~

So today we had to receive our "certs" which were fake reused scrolls...
I got my award for astronomy...
That picture in the slideshow was quite a nice one for me...
Unlike all the other facebook photos...
Oh ya, the Scout photo is also quite nice...
I should ask Aric for it...
I finally obtenu nouveau acc and ima.
But it is all fakez...
Nooo...
Prelim next week...
Noooo....


And I'm still Addicted to Blue~




23 August 2009

~ Reply to "Thoughts over sligtly trivial monkey business" ~

Are you saying that you did it you stupid iiiii? But anyway even if tt guy I was talking about didn't do it... I can say that he is so pissing because he is like out to get me because he is some immature insecure iiiii!!! Ooooh I just heard the word "syndicate" on the news!! Okay whatever... So he is really pissing because he is so selfish and unreasonable... If he understands how stupid it is, he will know why I don't do the things he says because he has a lot of it and claims he needs it for himself... So what does that mean? It completely says "I don't care about you, I want it for the benefit of myself at your expense! (Even though I don't help myself by doing work) Yes I don't care about you! It's just ALL ME!" Oh yes... That's the thing... Guys have solidarity... Girls have friendships... Guys are predictable... Girls have compassion... Girls have bitchy-ness... Guys have OBNOXIOUS PEOPLE!! Okay fine I admit... I go psycho and become a skinny iiiii sometimes but whatever... At least I strive for self improvement, sophistication, maturity of thought... What am I saying... I am just some selfish iiiii but "at least me and [myself] know we're mean. You try to act like you're so innocent. Like, "Oh, I [am SOOO pure] with all the little birdies and the little monkeys"" Ooppss.. side-tracking... You all should really watch Mean Girls... It's a very interesting movie... But anyway... I have nothing more to say...


And I'm still Addicted to Blue~





~ Sunday After Results ~



So apparently I got A1
for O level chinese...
And I got distinction for the oral part...
At first I was very afraid because I didnt write as much as I thought I could have like I only used 5 su yus instead of 10 in Mid Years...
And for Oral they asked a very strange question which I could not say any Su Yus...
So I was really scared...
They asked me if there was any more to say and I said hao xiang mei you...
Which was very bad because I should have thought up something and say somemore...
But I really didn't expect the question...
Maybe it's the reading that won them over...
Then for English Oral I am also quite scared...
It was not as bad as I would have expected...
Meaning that it was not as bad as Chinese oral and i thought I would lose my voice during it because I had a cough over the last week...
On friday during the practice with Mdm, I like couldnt talk and had to drink water half way...
And also since everyone takes English and uses it fo
r L1R5 (with the exception of higher mother tongue people) it is very competitive...
So I feel that maybe I would not be able to score as well...
Especially since the woman on the left since to lo
ok so scary and glaring at me instead of staring...
And also the examiners were like laughing when Edward was doing it so maybe they would give him a high mark and because I am after him I would get a low mark...
Today I went roller blading with Edward from 11am...
Then Johnson came at 2pm and we went around until 5pm...
At first there was a shower and we hid under the shelter for some time...
Then we went all the way to the skating park thing...
They were like teaching me how to rotate...
And we were doing it on the slope...
So when we went down, somehow, I was holding johnson and we were speeding down the long slope....
Even Edward tried to hold on to us to stop us but could not...
It was really scary...
But luckily I used my brakes and we were alright...
And that's why, Johnson, you shouldn't remove your heel brakes...
Then we started heading back and was caught in a downpour...
We hid under a taxi stand and went home...
Oh, me and Edward also went to Carl's Junior to eat lunch...
And Johnson went to eat at Long John Silver's at Bedok to eat by himself...
That's why he was so late...






And I'm still Addicted to Blue~




16 August 2009

~ EL Oral Tomorrow ~

So English Oral is tomorrow...
I hope that I would not lose my voice in the middle of it like on Friday...
There was an earthquake just now...
It lasted about a minute and the place shook a lot...
But then it stopped so it was okay again.
But I felt quite sick for some time after that...
It's like on a boat that is not moving...
For some reason moving boats don't rock as much...


And I'm still Addicted to Blue~




11 August 2009

~ .*.*.*.*.*. ~

Nothing out of the normal...
I got like a runny nose...
Got sprayed by distilled water by iiiiiii...
Feel that the class is NOT a conducive environment to study...
The only time when it comes close is during AMaths...
So bored...
So Stressed...
So helpless...
Anywayz now I am reading the second book after I have read the other books but it does not matter as they can be stand alone...
Verra interesting...


And I'm still Addicted to Blue~




10 August 2009

~ Mood Swings ~

So I had serious mood swings last night...
I went really really psychotic...
But at least I finished a chapter in SS and finished reading the whole SS syllabus...
I also read Carrie...
I felt that it was quite okay...
But it was not as good as I thought it would be...
The guy should actually like her and not be set up by someone else...
Carrie should chase and kill individuals...
There should not have the strange other parts that like spoils the book itself so you know who lived and who died and what happened even before it happened...
It was just overly dramatised...
Maybe the movie was better...
I think today was a holiday...
So there is school again tomorrow and it is just so stressful...
*Scream*


And I'm still Addicted to Blue~




06 August 2009

~ August Nooooo ~

Okay so I went crazy the last time but some people are really very pissing...
Like someone brought another person's chair next to me and said it was you who did it!
Okayz whatever...
And anything that happens will end up with it's you right? You like to do this kind of thing...
How crappy but whatever...
And anyway I was so enraptured by this book which was soooo sweet...
Books and dreams are like the best things in the world...
Imagination is unlimited...
But then school is also quite fun because you get to absorb all these knowledge that are laws and facts of the world around us...
At least until they are proven wrong they are useful in many areas...
And even if they are proven wrong, only their theories will change and new things will form...
We still can benefit from whatever we have thought we learnt because it is still a phenomenon that is a living working process...
And also people always tend to think in languages...
When you taste something sweet you cannot describe it as anything but "sweet".
The first thing that will come into mind is "sweet" not anything else because it will be indescribable otherwise...
Nothing a new word is formed meaning that is part of a new or existing language...
So there's this thing about english dominating the world...
It seems so right yet so wrong...
I can't think as lucidly in other languages as I think in English...
But then I would love to have an international language that is very practical and meaningful...
Meaning that words with related meanings will have related sounds and characters...
Maybe words will be like chinese in boxes so that length will always be consistent...
But I'm not so keen on pushing for it as I guess I really can't make up any language that is perfect...
For there is no perfect...
So it is the next best thing...
But must English dominate the world?
European countries that do not use English as an offical language are still able to do well...
But then they are not able to effectively communicate with other countries and end up resorting to English...
I guess I dream of suddenly a big NZ sized islands popping up in SEA and I would set the 10 languages that I picked out...
But then there always needs to be standardisation...
Maybe if we can get the ten languaged to be rolled around together like in Singapore...
A new language can be formed that is actually 10 languages combined where people use words that are most appropriate to the meaning because some languages are not sensitive to certain details and connotations...
But then 10 languages means that it would be biased to other languages...
But if we use all the languages...
What about dialects, extinct languages and new languages?
And there would be the problem of language siding where some people tend to use certain languages over others in this new combined language...
And also this means that people have to learn a lot of words...
And they have to learn full languages to fully understand the context use, connotations and special details...
This is so complicated...
Also there is the issue of resource moreover fuel depletion...
I have no time to explain it now but I feel that it is the most pressing issue at hand...
If we use up all the fuels then we would have no energy...
No more lights...
No more transport...
No more food because of the lack of transport...
No heating of food...
There will be like a widespread free for all...
So I really really wish that everyone not to spend so much time and energy on other issues such as economic crisis (I feel that since humans have greed there will always be rich and poor because of unfair opportunities --> Exponential theory, will explain later --> Human psychology, will explain another time) and other stuff like war...
Everyone who is capable should focus their attention on improving the harvesting renewable sources of energy.
We MUST develop better technology such that we get more energy from wind, solar, heat, wave. geothermal and hydroelectric energy...
So that one day we will all be able to shift our energy needs from fossil fuels to renewable sources of energy...
This allows fossil fuels to be spend on more important things like chemical production and research...
I believe that if they can rapidly decrease the size of memory space in thumbdrives and hard drives and memory cards and memory sticks...
We can also decrease the size of these harvesters of renewable sources of energy and the harvesters will be more efficient just as we are able to store more and more memory...
*Whew* that was very tiring...
Anyway I want to watch GI Joe...
I can't believe CT is finally married...


And I'm still Addicted to Blue~




04 August 2009

~ Pissed Off ~

There are just some people who like to piss people off...
I am really so pissed off because these people are pure mean inconsiderate iiiiiii...
SO immature...
It's not like haha I tricked you or I took your stuff haha...
But if you do it repeatedly it is so not funny, your "joke" is so stale and it really pisses people off...
And dolphin you cannot complain that I am using your pen because my pens always don't work if you drop it on the floor...
And my pencil box is always being dropped on the floor by one person...
And there are some evil mean iiiiiii that like to do something and frame someone...
Where is the justice?
Like when SOMEONE put the card holder to block a certain someone's face just because he does not like the person that SOMEONE decided to spread about the blocking thing as if he had to part in it and started framing other people...
Or when SOMEONE decided to draw on JunKai's and Yi Chong's tables and purposely made the circles in the eyes because only I would do it and framed me...
Someone went like "I swear I didn't do it! It must be him"...
Oh right...
The first thing you do is to cast off the blame onto other people...
What a uuuuuuu inconsiderate immature iiiii...
Maybe you did not doing but must you point fingers when you have no solid proof?
And obviously I would not do it because the circles on my "i"s are bigger and why would I write an insult to someone so that my handwriting can be recognised...
This is so pissing...
There are also some stupid iiiiiii that like to insult you in your face.
They insult you and expect you to what laugh at yourself?
Haha that's SO funny.
If you were insulted, would you think it's funny?
I'm not talking about like haha laugh at some guy because he does something queer...
It is like no one is around to make you more popular you are just insulting him just to feel superior or is that you normal conversation with other people.
I do not like to mention names but there are some people who insult you to your face and expect them to like you even more.
Yes people please get your OWN timetable...
Please do your OWN homework...
Please play around with your OWN stuff...
And whatever insults you have make sure it is about YOURSELF...
Don't they ever think of others?
Okay so maybe I'm a iiiii but I don't purposely make people pissed off or do bad things to them...
I am not trying to like say who did what because they know who they are and I do not have solid proof and they are obviously SO good at finding loopholes and saying "I did not do it!" with such a straight face and come up with reasons and other people to blame...
I hate this world...
But it is the only one I got...
I feel so pissed...
I feel like the girl in Tora Dora where she starts making a hurricane of tables and chairs...
Oh I really wish I telekensis because if I personally throw stuff around I would get into trouble...
Oh and if I don't give you an eraser or paper or ignore you, you should know why...


And I'm still Addicted to Blue~




03 August 2009

~ August ~

Nooooooo....
Noooooooo mmoooorrrreee timmeeeee.....
I want to create a new blog but I have no time so I will do it after O levels...
I really hope that I can do well
I really need to study more...
~
And anyway I have impossible fantasies again...
They are impossible because I can't play any instrument and I can't sing but it would be nice if it could happen...
It would be nice if after the SYNO concert that I was forced to go to...
Then after the concert, in between the two elevators thing...
We would be sitting on the steps playing stuff that would own the original concert...
AR and I would be playing violins...
EJ gets to play the viola...
JK and TS plays the double-bass and cello...
We would start off with Viva and other Bond songs...
Then we would play the songs from his album...
This fantasy can also apply for us performing at the Senior's Night which I think would be quite boring...
Also maybe me, JK and TS could sing russian songs at SN?
Like the `funny bunny` one (i'm not telling you the title) and those by Та́ту...
Past fantasies:
JK is singing Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis and the three of us are doing the 3 scenes in the mv: bathtub, corridor, bed (I choose the bed because I get to throw things into a bucket of fire)
Me singing Chinese songs at the Chinese K. TS could be playing the keyboard and JK can be playing the electric guitar.


And I'm still Addicted to Blue~










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