~Dreams~

27 May 2009

~ So Helpless ~

I feel so helpless...

I feel so unprepared for chinese...

I feel so sad...

I think I am going to do so badly for O levels...

And I found out the jc I want to go to requires me to have 4 points

Meaning that I have to get an A1 for English

And I am still scoring a B4

And my other subjects must all get A1s too

I am very scared that I may have screwed up SPA

This is so pissing and saddening

I feel so helpless

And DSA is for people who have CCAs that have competitions

like sports and performing arts

So saddening

Am I going to get an A1 for chinese?

T_T

It's 6:28 PM

And I'm still Addicted to Blue~

22 May 2009

~ Results ~

So I did quite badly for the mid year exams T_T

I got 9 points which is so saddening T_T

I got an A2 for combined humans

I should really study lit and ss more

So that I can do the essays in a shorter time so that I can do the unseen and source based questions better

Then what was really saddening was English T_T

I got a B4 T_T

I got a Sixty 4.4 T_T

T_T

I really really need to get an A1 for english

Really really worrying T_T

I`m not sure whether in the end I will manage to get an A1 T_T

Feel like DSAing

And my other subjects are also very bad T_T

For the other 7 A1s

I did really really badly for geog and only got a 79 T_T

I also did quite badly for chem, physics and bio with around 85 for all

And I did quite badly for both maths with an 87 for each

SO SAD T_T

Will this be the last time I`m posting here until next year?

It's 8:36 PM

And I'm still Addicted to Blue~

21 May 2009

~ T_T Dooms day tomorrow ~

So results is coming out tomorrow

I think I did really really badly...

My name for top 5 in the level only appeared 3 times T_T

I think I did very very badly for lit, ss, english, geog and physics

I think I did badly for emaths and amaths

The only ones that I`m not worried about is chinese, chem and bio

I feel so sad

Then today got this weird talk

And I feel like doing the DSA

O.o

DSA is basically going from letter F to the right

But anyway I feel so scared for O levels

I can imagine myself crying in front of everybody when the O level results are released when I get a B3 for english or an A2 for any other subject

I don`t think I can stop crying if I do not get six points

T_T

Nothing will ever make me feel better

I would have contemplated yi liao bai liao

But I firmly dont believe in it

I guess I would have to make the best out of it
But I would be so freaking sad for the rest of my life

And I regret not taking higher chinese

So now I confirm cannot go to rj

But *haiz*

Nvm

Chinese O levels in 9 days time

Have to study

It's 9:23 PM

And I'm still Addicted to Blue~

19 May 2009

~ Not so sad ~

So I was 3rd in the level for chem

So I`m not so sad now

But I feel really sad for making the careless mistakes or I will get top already

Becaus the top is 85 and I did quite badly with a 83

I think lit, SS, English and Physics are gonna be real bad

Bio and chinese should be okay I guess

Anywayz I got a new phone

Which came free when u renew a contract

It wasn`t my contract but I got a free phone anyway

Yayz this one actually has a camera

But I`m still very scared for O levels

Then u ppl would say how would I not get six points

But isn`t there that su yu that says zhi zhe qian lu bi you yi shi...

Meaning that I can still fail sometime

I`m really really sad

Maybe if I manage to do well for mid years or prelims I can get a dsa?

It's 8:07 PM

And I'm still Addicted to Blue~

18 May 2009

~ Sad ~

Today was very sad...

I think I did very badly for mid year exams

Which is very very sad

T_T

And I think I screwed up SPA

I really really need to get at least six A1s or else really cannot already...

Then I`m also not sure whether I can get the minus 2 points

Very very scared

Then Chinese O levels is in less than 2 weeks time

The band was weird and I knew the drummer but whatever.

I`m so sad

So scared

I feel so hopeless...

It's 9:08 PM

And I'm still Addicted to Blue~

17 May 2009

~ End of Exam ~

End of exams

Exams was sucky

On Friday went to watch angels and demons...

Quite interesting

Quite scary

Explosion is scientifically incorrect...

Waited 1 hour to eat F&C

Then went home...

Saturday I watched Star Trek...

Quite interesting

But mostly scientifically incorrect

Especially about warping

I also have some issues about the black hole part

But I guess the laws of physics is different inside the blackhole just that no one has gone into one so we dont know...

But I really dun tink tt black holes are warp holes...

Blackholes are like accumulating infrequent uneven mass and giving it make out evenly through space through black hole evaporation due to the random matter and antimatter seperation without the annhilation...

But whatever...

Very scared for O level chinese...

T_T

It's 1:32 PM

And I'm still Addicted to Blue~

14 May 2009

~ last day of exams ~

Tomorrow is the last day of exams...

I will be so happy because I can officially do wadeva I want...

Even tho I have been doing mostly wadeva I want now...

Especially using the comp...

I think I screwed up all the exams...

And I think I screwed up SPA...

I knew I did something wrong...

But I`m not gonna say cos it says it was CONFIDENTIAl

So I suggest no one tell anyone else about SPA so that nationally the average will drop and we will get a better grade...

We cant help it if we dunno anything about the topic...

Then there are some people who are hypocrites...

In short it is like `do unto others what u would others do unto u` or wadeva the quote was...

Or it could also be like `judge not yet ye be judged`...

I feel so hypocritical right now but I really dun care cos im quite pissed off...

So as I was saying...

It was like I didnt talk to u to be insulted...

And when you`re insulting someone else about something that is so childish and not funny...

I just try to smile but I know my already low IQ level is dropping...

Wadeva...

I dunn care anymorez >_<

I cant get pass stage 4.six in the game I`m playing...

That`s y im not really looking forward to the end of the exams...

Why cant there be exams non-stop all year round?

It's 8:49 PM

And I'm still Addicted to Blue~

13 May 2009

~ 2 more days to exams ~

This week was better than last week...

For geog I had so much to write but not enuff time...

But I think that I have wrote enuff...

Not really studying this weekk....

Because i`m addicted to this weird mmorpg

im level 35 already in 4 days...

Mousehunt is hard...

My fingernail is still blue from writing...

I dunno how ink got on it in the first place...

My exam table is blue from ink smudging...

During geog I asked Kl to gimme paper...

I asked for 2 cos i tot she was only gonna gimme 1 but she gave me 2 and said there is 2 already on it..

Hao gang ga...

Den I forgot what the female parts of the flower are...

And I forgot that plasmid is a vector...

T_T

The wire of my mouse like the rubber thing partly came off...

And im getting pissed off...

RIGHT NOW because of people who like to talk to themselvs...

*roar*

It's 8:04 PM

And I'm still Addicted to Blue~

10 May 2009

~ Weekend of Exams ~

So it is the weekend of exams and I have been wasting my time on this computer...

What else is there to say?

Geog is very hard to study for...

And I dun feel like studying maths or bio...

So here I am...

It's 9:59 PM

And I'm still Addicted to Blue~

08 May 2009

~ First week of exams are over ~

So the first week of exams are over...

The first 3 days sucked

Geog and chinese seemed quite okay

I was very happy for geog cos my fav theme is water and 2 questions about it came out

1 river and 1 coast

yayz

But them today physics paper 1 was quite easy

But paper 2 was hard

The either/or question was alright...

But the other questions sucked

Because a lot came out about applications question where they taught us one example but they give us another example which we do not know how it works...

T_T

This round of exams sucks...

T_T

...

looking back i think I was a bit insane from doing an overnight lit in `perfect life`...

It's 11:36 AM

And I'm still Addicted to Blue~

05 May 2009

~ 2nd Day of ExamsY_Y ~

Exams r so pissing and screwed up...

No time to properly do the SBQs...

T_T....

I got so many questions wrong...

This is so bad...

If I get questions wrong when I think I`m right, I would get more questions wrong when I think I`m wrong T_T

Y_Y

It's 2:33 PM

And I'm still Addicted to Blue~

04 May 2009

~ First Day of Exams Sucks ~

English sucked because I screwed up the format for section 2 because we didn`t rlly go through report....

I am going to die for english T_T

But the compo SEEMED quite okay and quite fun...

But I could have screwed it up too...

And I could never write as good as other people...

Emaths kinda sucked because I dunno at that time how to do question 8...

Now I realised that I should have factorised the x in xsquared - x then I get x-1 which is in the other fraction...

I also screwed up one part of the set question...

I forgot that the U means add the sets T_T...

SO SAD....

I didn`t do 2 questions correctly...

Today sucks bad...

Maybe it is punishment for being so pissed off yesterday...

Suddenly after I read to kill a mockingbird, every middle-aged women seemed like the ladies of Maycomb...

Hypocrites, mean iiiiiii and overly critical and judgemental...

But the reception was as nice as always so who cares...

It's 8:53 PM

And I'm still Addicted to Blue~

01 May 2009

~ Perfect life ~

Sometimes I think about a `perfect life` where we keep living a scene that never ends.

One would be in a car driving to a destination that is forever beyond my reach.
Of course I will not be driving the car, but I would be sleeping or just being in some weird peacefuly state.

I would have endless CDs to play...

And for some reason the cars move in perfect harmony...

We don`t have to brake or slow down because of a jam or a car changing lanes.

It is quite peaceful...

Now I`m doing lit because I am so behind schedule and saturday and sunday will be completely wasted...

So byebye SS and Chem...

So now I am feeling another `perfect life`...

Where it is forever night...

The morning never comes...

I have to forever do literature notes...

The fan makes the place cool but not cold...

The whirl of the fan is almost hypnotic...

I am feeling slightly sleepy but i continue with lit...

It just feels so peaceful...

It's 10:55 PM

And I'm still Addicted to Blue~